Lovely January~

Made a trip back to Batu Pahat and finally, got myself some motivation to actually step out of home without my parents but, with my fren. Nee, don't complain about me not going out with you when you yourself never ask as we are as demotivated with one another as each other.

Back to the outing, a small chatting session with 2 of my seniors, 1 who contacted me, and the other, the special guest. We ended up at the local cafe that had recently flooded Msia. Ordered toast and cups of tea~ You know where~

Everything was so normal, updating each other about oneself, talking about old days... except this time, I laugh a lot. And when I was laughing, a question popped up my head. "When was the last time I laughed this hard?" Always proud of being independent finally, I never realise that I do not laugh much.

Going out with this guy who is the only 1 who I openly had a crush on, maybe that was more than a crush is actually not a planned thing to do this trip back. People keep asking me the reason of me still hanging out with him though he had hurt me times, though he is not really good-looking, though I am not suppose to go near him. Maybe now, I can answer their questions. Together with the hurtful things and words, he actually brought be great times, and laughing sessions which i seldom get from others. Well, I do not make ppl happy, so cant really expect ppl to bring me laughs. But yeah, he is the guy who never fail to make me laugh.

 

To you,

When I say that ppl come near me to be nearer to my best fren, I do not mean you. If this statement that I'd stated jokingly disturbed you, hope you do not take it personally. I do appreciate ppl who ever want to be my friend, no matter what reason they have. As I said, as long as we found friends and everyone is happy at the end of the day. Nothing else matters.

Yeah, been busy these days that I do not have as much time as before even for myself. I do not have time for...

 

-My family (hardly call them)

-My friends (rarely talk to them)

-My cousin (never see them though they live real near)

-My boyfriend (I do see him but will be busy with our own stuff)

-gym (with all sorts of VALID reason, I bump in only once a week nowadays)

-Tivo (watch it before bedtime and most likely fall asleep half way)

-House work (I don't normally do it anyway)

-my hobby (Din't get to shop as much as before, especially window shopping)

 

I know some of my friends are thinking that once I get myself attached, I do not spend as much time as beofre with them.

My cousin did complain to my brother as well since I do not visit them as much as before.

My house is a mess.

I can feel the distance between me and most people getting further and further.

My Boyfriend said that I put him at the last place in my heart and I am not so into him.

 

WHAT SHOULD I DO?

 

Sometimes I do think that its my own fault that I do not arrange my time nicely, But what can I do? Its not my fault that

* My boss bought a new lot and we have just shifted and everything is not in order yet

* My maid went back for Raya holiday that I need to help out at home instead of going for trips as 3 of my friends ajak, including my bf

* The clerk is on leave that I need to help out in dad's shop during Raya.

* Connection at office is down and I need to send and receive mails at home which is realy exhausting after a day work.

 

Maybe I should give myself some more time to settle down and friends, give me some time~

 

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This is the 3rd day of my second week working in the new company. Its quite interesting, learning lots of new things, meeting lots of people, making lots of mistakes too~ My jobscope? One leg kick~ But of course its fun and satisfying (at the moment).

The thing is, if I do not have any dinner plans with friends, my nites are dreadfully boring. After being so busy for the whole day, can you imagine a evening with not a thing to do? Yeah, I should rest and have some early nites, but somehow, my 'motor' just cant slow down... Arrrggghhh~ what should I do now?

Yeah, gave my 1 month notice last month and today is my last day with my darling kids and of coz, my colleagues. Throughout this year, I had learnt a lot about handling kids, working with them, have fun with them, and lets not forget the rare incident when I make those naughty kids cry... :p As what life should be like, the experiences in this company is a mixture of fun, anger, sorrow and peace.

Let's forget about the past and concentrate on future.... since it will be real interesting. Everyone, I am finally going back to bp on Sunday after 1 1/2 months in KL (I use to go back twice a month). Then, there will be a short trip to Spore with my high school friend. And finally, I'll be going to Macau with my dad and also... Muahahaha~ my first crush~ Kor, dun worry, I'll tell you about him shortly. OK, lets go back to macau, it is actually my dad's business trip and since he will be busy having meeting, he planned for us (first crush and myself) to go Hong Kong for shopping!!! What a great dad I have.... Guess I'll really enjoy the short trip with money and company.

OK< about my first crush, He started working in my dad's shop since he was 16 (I was 8), and he was the one who fetch my and send me to and fro tuitions and all sorts of classes i atttended. But before I know anything, he got married when I was in college and now, he has a baby gal... Of coz i will not do anything to him when we are out of malaysia, but guess i'll enjoy his company and that's it.... :D

yeah, small letter he .... is the one that:

- I eagerly want to forget

- I regret knowing

- I do not want to call

- I do not want to think about

- I do not want to see in my funeral

- I do not want to get involve with...

 

but.... he is also the one that:

- I can't possibly forget

- I care

- I cannot NOT call

- I always thought of

- I miss

- I probably love

 

Life's miserable with him around and I do hope that he is the only one that I feel this way about and I sincerely wish that, I will not be so silly to make this happen again.

Yeah yeah, No1 can possibly make your life miserable without your consent, but well, I am just dumb and hope that this is the only case that I act this dumb.

First of all, I'll apologies to those that I have neglected... ah kor and cheryl who I had not swam with for some time, my dad, who had complained to my mum saying that I do not keep him up dated about myself and not return his miss call, and also friends who I was physically but not psychologically with.

Ever since I pick up my part time job as a art teacher, I do not even have enough time for myself knowing that I love myself more than any other people, so its rather a bad sign. Weekdays will be working and trying to get enough rest, watch dramas and read books (lots of them at home waiting for me). And lets talk about pathetic fridays... normally ppl cant wait for fridays to come, but friday is actually the most tiring day of my week. after taking the baby class where i need to raise my voice so that i can hear myself, I need to handle a class of rowdy kids who needs constant reminder to color/draw what is in front of them. Saturday i have class from 9am -4pm so, i'll normally want some resting time as my Sundays start early nowadays with a poster color class. and after that, it will be lunch, and for the remaining days, I will try to hype myself up and not think of MONDAY!!! So, you see, my time is rather limited, pls dont blame me for what I cant afford to do due to my strength and energy level. :) Now, I just hope that my 'career' and salary will grow and that I do not need to challenge myself with all these anymore... for the time being, I shall bear with what i choose to do and hope my friends out there will be understanding... oh ya, and lets not forget my dad who is think is currently mm song about my attitude.

For people who are adventurous, problems can be viewed as challenges.... and that will definitely change the entire incident, the view of it, the methods of handling it, and of course the outcome can be totally different. This is the conclusion my new job interviewer and I came out with... And that happened weeks ago, but why am I mentioning this now you may ask... cause... YESTERDAY WAS A TOTAL DISASTER!!! Since morning, I got to know that company's driver will not be able to send the kids back home and both admin + boss will not be able to send them either, so, I'll need to send them home and the route there was really confusing. Then, Boss said that she will come to office to show me the directions so i'll need to stay in for lunch when i'd planned to go shop for ingredients for today's pot luck. In the evening, went to Jusco and bought too much stuff that gave me problem (or challenge) to get all the things to the car and then up to my small apartment. Half way preparing. brother called and I'd need to go fetch him back.

And I thought thats the end of it and someone will be able to help me with the work but.... the greatest is still behind... Nee called with a strange number saying that she was robbed. Apparently, after tuition (overtime tuition), she walked to her car just across the road or rather path, to get to her car when 2 Indian guys came in a bike and threated her with a chopping knife, so after she gave them her bag with ID card, License, Money, and car keys, I need to bring her the spare keys and she was at Cheras place where roads are complicating AGAIN...

As norm, we need to report the case so that she will not be charged when there's  a ID card spot check :p Since we do not know where is Cheras Police Station, we went to the one in Bricksfield and Tah dah... we need to go to Cheras still and on our way there, there WAS a Police check along the road and she was stopped (as what bad lucked ppl usually get) and she needed to explain all over again, what had happened. In Cheras station, things were freaky, the place is worn out and its scary. We got to see the inspector and now, this is the 3rd time things need to be explained... all these lasted till 2.30am and when we reach home, we need to continue what i had done for today's pot luck and well, we slept at 5am.

WHAT A "CHALLENGING" DAY...

being only a little adventurous, only a little brave and a little lazy, I have chosen to work for my boss at her other company. Its not an easy job also OK, its a one leg kick kinda job, so I'll got to assist my boss and do everything about marketing and sales but the advantage in this will be, i'll learn a lot from her, a rather successful entrepeuneur and hopefully, i will be like her one day and come out with my own concept. So instead of going for Sunway group and strive for higher level, I have taken the path where I'll be independent one day (soon). Good luck to me...

 

P/s: boss is always crazy about good food, will continue being a fatty.

Ever since I completed my subjects for my degree course in HELP uni coll, I have been working with kids as most of you know, No, its not a kindergarten nor a tuition center. It is a IQ development center. As one of the first 2 staffs, I was trainned in the headquater, treated rather well by my lady boss, and I enjoy the luxury of having lots of time to myself, but then, I got bored and so, I started my jobhunting and got an offer that give me the same pay (due to my freshness), longer working hour, but also more learning opportunity and so, I chose to change job.

Today, my mission was to hand in my resignation letter and gosh, its not at all easy, having a nice boss to deal with this time. at the end of the discussion (more of her talking), she gave me 3 choices, continue working and bear with the boringness and she will give me back my letter, work in her sister company as a marketing exec also and lastly, take the offer but come back anytime if I think my current job is better. SO, mission failed, my resignation is still under KIV... sad + guilty

     Its been 9 months since I last post in myspace, well, what to do, There's nth really interesting for me to share with you guys (if there is someone out there reading my blog...)

     But something happened 2 days ago, yeah, i broke the curfew and went out till 4am back in my hometown while I am suppose to be at home before 12midnite. A friend saw a gal and commented that she is that kinda gal that he will fall for, but his next sentence was, "but there's sth in her that I do not like as well" To me, its rather contradicting, as i always think that when you like/love someone, you will accept both his/her good and bad or rather, you will not see the bad in that person as something bad.

     Then, there was this argument in my family when my cousin in law has very bad attitude towards my cousin but he still bear with it plus, he speaks up for her when the adults at home was trying to tell him that it hurts us to see him being treated that way but he totally took her side though she treated him like shit. Is that what we call love? then why cant she love her more and treat him betta? well, maybe she treat him like an emperor when we are absent~ who knows...

     After that, there's this long drive back to the city when I have lots of time to think about this LOVE vs ACCEPTANCE vs RESPECT issue. Will I accept my love one's bad attitude? Guess when you love someone, you will ignore that part and if its too terrible, you don't expect him/her to change it and settle by himself but would rather share the progress. Hope I will have that patient and toleration enough to share this part of life with him if necessary...

     First of all, I shall sing a song here... Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to Yee Huie, Happy Birthday To you~~ Yeah, today is Presicous Yee Huie's birthday~ Being 22 years old, Hope she will be more optimistic soon. I am not very sure about now as I had not seen her for 3 whole months, but as I remember, her self-confidence was rather low though she is real pretty, smart and gorgeous~

    Maybe she should imitate our Optimist (nee) more often who will always believe in herself (though there's nth much actually :p) OK, actually I will not like that... I still like the humble Yee Huie but believe in yourself k dear~ Ok, I am real tired now, ever since the Optimist stays with me, I have been interupted by her wayssss of sleeping~ And I should sleep now, before she sleep, so that I will get some peaceful sleep... nite~~

I always wonder, how can some couple maintain their relationships for ten years and above or even, married couples who had been together for twenty-thirty, evey fifty years~ Well, I suppose compromising and accepting is really something that people need to practice when they want to be with the one that he/she love...

 

These days, had been voicing out and even discuss with my two best frens who had been with me for more than 8 years about something that we are facing now... Eventhough, we complain, we become sad because of each other, we got tired of each other's action, but still, in each of our heart, there will always be the other two. You might question, maybe its because of habit or sth that we are used to, but maybe, thats what we call, LOVE. NO matter what, we still love one another until today, and I am quite sure, until the day we are left with 1 tooth each, we will still love each other deep in our heart~ cheers for our friendship girls~~

Saw one of cia's lastest blog and decided to make some confession too~ Since she started 'going steady' with Timothy, I had started to neglect her a lot, thinking that, there's someone there to take care of her, bring her out, and yeah, she does look better these days with someone there taking care of her. Somehow, I am used to her rushing back to our hometown then go back to spore in less than 24 hours time... I tried to understand her that she need to spend some time with Tim, but still, sometimes, I just dun want to understand. Then, I dont think for her anymore... eg. We used to blog in Myspace, commenting at each other's entries, but I switched to other blog engine without considering her...

 

I hardly contact her, I dont reply her msg when I received simple msg such as, "I miss you girl" with excuses such as, I am too busy working, she will be fine, Tim is there for her... there shouldnt be much problem, its just a simple statement and I do not need to reply, blah blah blah~ Last weekend, Ching Nee had been fetching her and sending her from and to JB so that she can spend more time with us... If it was a year ago, I would have followed no matter what, I will definitely give my mum some excuse, probably, "I am in Summit, too many cars, cannot go out now". But I do not know why, I just wanna be alone, maybe spend some time with my family, sleep, rest.... I just dont feel like travelling... so, sorry ya girl~ I know you will never for a hundred years blame me...

 

Oppsss, dunno what else to write for u dear~ just hope that we can soon spend more time together.... more I mean more than 1 week~